'mother i tried please believe me, i'm doing the best that I can. i'm ashamed of the things i've been put through, i'm ashamed of the person I am'
these are dark days.
really dark days.
i would like to think that there's some security, in anything i do... but there isn't.
it's the most terrifying thing. i'm living without a net.
and i am consistently one step away from just... well... i don't even know. doing something drastic, dramatic, and stupid.
it's my own fault for having idiots for idols, but...
'she gave away the secrets of her past and said, i've lost control again'
i'm sorry i'm such a lout. i really am. even my closest friends can attest to my... i could only describe it as flakiness, but it's not as easy as that...
i can't explain it, and i guess i shouldn't. just makes me sound like more of an asshole. but i guess that's the truth and i shouldn't bother avoiding it.
but i am sorry.
'see my true reflection, cut off my own connections. i can see life getting harder. so sad is this sensation, reverse the situation. i can't see it getting better...'
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